The Trek to Lose Weight (and Save My Life)
Most people think starving yourself makes you skinny.
But for me, starving myself made me gain weight.
It made me tired, foggy, and defeated.
It made my body panic and shut down.
I wasn’t binging. I wasn’t “cheating.”
I was barely eating. Sometimes not at all.
And yet—I was gaining weight faster than ever.
At first, I couldn’t make sense of it.
I thought I was being disciplined.
I thought I was “doing the work.”
But I wasn’t feeding myself. I was starving myself sicker.
Malnourishment Doesn’t Always Look Like You Expect
I had this image in my head: malnourished people look frail. Thin.
They disappear into their clothes and their bones.
But that wasn’t my story.
I was malnourished and getting bigger.
Bloated. Inflamed.
Puffy in the face. Sluggish in my body.
Waking up with joint pain, brain fog, and no energy at all.
I was cold even when it wasn’t cold.
And still, the scale crept higher.
The more I restricted, the worse it got.
My body wasn’t the enemy—it was trying to protect me.
It had shifted into survival mode. Holding on to everything.
Because I had stopped giving it what it needed to feel safe.
I Took the Messages Too Far
I’ve had intuitive guidance—channeled messages—about certain foods I should eat.
Things like broccoli, tofu, rice, spinach.
I was listening… but I went too far.
Instead of finding nourishment, I slipped into obsession.
I overcorrected.
I stopped eating most days, convinced that food itself was the problem.
But it wasn’t.
It was my fear.
My shame.
My old pattern of self-denial.
Coming Back to Life
Eventually, I reached a point where I realized:
I wasn’t just gaining weight…
I was losing my life.
So I made a new commitment:
To feed myself.
To move my body every day.
To stop hiding behind “health” and actually start living again.
That’s what this trek is about.
I’ve started walking daily.
I’m eating for fuel, not fear.
I’m tracking my meals and steps.
Not obsessively—but intentionally.
I’m slowly shifting from survival to aliveness.
From fatigue to focus.
From hiding… to showing up.
This Isn’t a Before-and-After Post
I haven’t “arrived.” I don’t have the after photo.
But I’m in motion. And that’s the point.
This is the trek to lose weight.
But really—it’s the trek to save my life.
To reclaim my energy.
To rebuild my trust.
To make peace with my body.
If you’ve ever felt like your body is betraying you,
If you’ve ever gained weight while starving yourself,
If you’ve ever wanted to disappear but secretly hoped to be found…
Then you’re not alone.
I’ll keep sharing this journey.
You can walk with me here on the blog, on YouTube, or through the GLC community I’m building for people like us—people coming back to life, one step at a time.
Whether healing, rebuilding, or trying to create a business that actually feels like you, you don’t have to do it alone anymore. GLC is a space to grow your purpose, not just your profit.
